Current mood:	annoyed
Current music:	"Terminator" by Sevendust

Sluts and Love
I'll be the first to admit, I'm a complete asshole when it comes to women. Sure, I haven't had sex for 6 years, but I still feel like I'm using them for sex. I just know I will never be in another relationship and I'll never fall in love again, so I just rely on my sweet lust for the slutty. But I learned something new in this area tonight.
Courtney Steinhart is just an ex-girlfriend I didn't bone. But damn did she change after we broke up. She found her alcohol and drugs and of course men. All of a sudden I want something to do w/ her. So pretty much I've been spending the last 2 years trying to bone her and just get it over w/, and hell, I like hanging out w/ girls and I love hanging out w/ slutts because of their "don't give a fuck" attitude. But then tonight, sex was the topic of our conversation, and she mentioned how she wasn't a slut, she just didn't want a boyfriend. What the fuck!?
So because she was still my friend, I didn't let that get to me, I just stuck around. Then I got to thinking about all the other things we were talking about: all her experiences w/ drugs just yesterday, how unhappy she was because she wasn't fucked up on something, and how she basically can't live w/out being drugged up. This was much more comfortable when I thought she was a slut, because w/ the "don't give a fuck" personality, she wouldn't expect someone to care about her, just as long as they were getting sex. Which is exactly how I felt, no care in the world, just want to do her. But when I found out she really wasn't slutty, I realized how uncomfortable it was to be around her, because it ment that she was a really nice girl who was fucking herself up.