Current mood:	aggravated
Current music:	Mad Season

Amazing How Much Respect Can Be Gone So Soon
2 of my best friends that I've had this year are now something I've never been so digusted by in at least one of my lives. It pisses me off mostely because I hate for people to make such an entrance in my life but then I haveto watch them fuck up their own lives.
I just remember being a nieve music loving teen at the age of 17. I snuck into The Compound, 1 man tought me so much about being in the music scene just in 1 night and decided to make me one them. His name was Fred Nota, the lead singer of Escape 2 Everything. Each member treated me like their little brother, I felt like it was impossible to be in any trouble when I was with them, and Fred was the oldest brother of them all. I looked at these guys like they were ledgends of heavy metal, if you ask me, they are rock stars.
I would call Fred all the time when I was in high school, just for advice on music and sometimes just life in general. Granted, he wasn't the smartest guy out there (massive stoner), but when it came to the right side of his brain, I don't think the rollin' quite got there. And for the past numerous years, he was w/ his girlfriend Amy. It was strange, you got Andy, Scapps, and Laggz who got the looks that make girls throw themselves at them and Wein who just had a personality they loved, but Fred would always stay commited to Amy. That was one more thing to admire.
After about 2 years of being with the guys of Escape 2 Everything, I met Salina. It was one of my usually flaws, I meet them with the intention of lust, but instead I practically fall for them and after I find out a little more about them, I come to the conclusion that I should have stayed lustfull toward them! I suddenly found her and I thinking, feeling, and saying deeper things than you would usually do for others. Yet I never wanted anything more, because I felt like I had her just enough for me to be happy. But it wasn't happy enough for her, she was the kind of girl who was into that relationship shit, and got one when she started dating Eric. I was cool with Eric for the most part, but she started doing alittle bit more drugs when she was seeing him, and they both moved in w/ Fred and Amy.
Eventually, it didn't work out w/ Salina and Eric, so he moved out. The day before LocoBazooka came and she decides to call me and tell me she could use someone to talk to when I got to Wein's house. Here I am thinking "hey I got my best friend back and her and I can talk about anything and it would be comforting". That's till I came to find out that Fred was cheating on Amy with Salina. Salina is all teary eyed and what not, but what fucking sympathy could that be given??? Then she tells me that Amy's pregnant and not telling Fred. Yet they proceed to keep doing whatever it is they are doing when the fact is plain and simple... STOP, RETARDS!!!
Every conversation I had w/ Fred just made me think "if he only knew" and I told Salina "If you felt like you had feelings for Fred, knowing he was w/ Amy should have been ur motive to let go of that" and she says "This all kind of happened w/out warning". These retards do toooooo many rolls! The feelings you had are the fucking warning!!! For someone who's not that stupid and fucked up on ecstacy, this would be the stupidest thing to start but the easiest thing to end. But for them, it's the opposite.
Now Amy knows and they are broken up.Amy is left with a fatherless child, Fred is neglecting his child just like my own father I HAVE beaten up for that, and Salina seems to still think that she has a chance with Fred. I've lost whatever respect I've had for Fred, my big brother. I want nothing to do with Salina. And I have no idea what Amy's gonna do. Salina seemed to have thought that this was something hard to nice and easily walk away from, well I did it for her, and it was one of the easiest things I've ever done.