Current mood:

guilty

A New Curse
When something is meaning as much to someone else as it does to me, it almost seems like more of a curse than a gift. Red Eagle's Tune didn't mean as much to the other guys as it did to me, at least not to Jesse and Rj. But Unspoken Hero is like a brainchild to all of us, Me, Dan, Tory, and Jeff. Now I've gotten so close that I almost feel like I cursed this band. The music is great, and I think we're getting our shit together better than we were last year, but I love them like my brothers, and I cursed them.
I'm glad to see Tory is getting his shit together. He's got a job, working on making peace w/ his family, and he's in a relationship that it accually looks like he won't fuck up. I just hope he holds on to all of it. So far 3 out of 4 of us have had ex-girlfriends die. 2 of us have had drug problems in the past. And pretty much all of us have had bottled urges to just go away and leave everything behind.
Sure, some may be thinking "hey, these things happen to anyone". But I never entered these lives w/ any secrets, and I always knew that to some extent it was pointless to tell them these things because you never truely know how they feel till it happens to them. Then it does. Tory better hold on and stop asking me those questions of why, because it's a reason I don't want my little brother to know. As much as I feel this way, the last thing I'll do is leave these guys because of that. We all have our dedicated burns, and that is what will bring any band of friends together, no matter who the curse comes from.