zacks_senario1 (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} zacks_senario1) wrote,@ 2006-10-08 19:25:00 |
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October Always Wins
I can never have an October where something good happens. I'm going through some retarded shit this October. Both Wendy and Tanya are going through my mind at the same time, and I don't want a relationship to begin with. I'm losing alot of blood i my head from being nice to my asshole customers at work. Cotey and Olivia... enough said. And of course, Stephanie and Shelly are just a new thing to add to the book of my life.
So there we have it: 1. 2 girls I don't want won't get the fuck outa my head 2. Unspoken Hero broke up over stupid shit 3. Work blows 4. MY GOD DAMN COUSINS ARE DATING EACHOTHER! 5. Just as I learn to cope with the fact that Stephanie is gone, I find out that she was carrying my daughter, Shelly at the time of her death.
I'll never know for sure if it was a boy or a girl, seeing as she prolly didn't even know she was pregnant, but I just have a strange feeling it was a girl. Prolly because we only had a name for a girl when we had that conversation. It wasn't going to be Michelle, just Shelly. Naming her after Shelly Webster from "The Crow". It was Stephanie's idea of naming her after "the most beautiful part of a story so dark". Considering she never seized to amaze me, I went along with it. She could have lived a happy life or a dark life, but either way, Shelly would have been beautiful.
I can never have an October where something good happens. I'm going through some retarded shit this October. Both Wendy and Tanya are going through my mind at the same time, and I don't want a relationship to begin with. I'm losing alot of blood i my head from being nice to my asshole customers at work. Cotey and Olivia... enough said. And of course, Stephanie and Shelly are just a new thing to add to the book of my life.
So there we have it: 1. 2 girls I don't want won't get the fuck outa my head 2. Unspoken Hero broke up over stupid shit 3. Work blows 4. MY GOD DAMN COUSINS ARE DATING EACHOTHER! 5. Just as I learn to cope with the fact that Stephanie is gone, I find out that she was carrying my daughter, Shelly at the time of her death.
I'll never know for sure if it was a boy or a girl, seeing as she prolly didn't even know she was pregnant, but I just have a strange feeling it was a girl. Prolly because we only had a name for a girl when we had that conversation. It wasn't going to be Michelle, just Shelly. Naming her after Shelly Webster from "The Crow". It was Stephanie's idea of naming her after "the most beautiful part of a story so dark". Considering she never seized to amaze me, I went along with it. She could have lived a happy life or a dark life, but either way, Shelly would have been beautiful.
