Time for a New Life... Where Do I Start?
I finally started talking to Alice Wills again. I was outside at school having a smoke and she was getting her finacial aid papers. Later on I went to her house, we had one of our little bickers and she punched me in the face leaving a dent in my cheek bone and a twitch in my eye (just like the good ol' fucking days). But I still went back to her house after karaoke. I know it sounds stupid of me, but the fact is, I really needed her help. I had a bad feeling that a guy named Jason, who was involved w/ Stephanie's murder, was seeing Wendy. I didn't know for sure, but he had the same name, looked like him, and had the same pushy personality that I always hated. Seeing as I can never find Sharron when I need her, the only person I could turn to was Alice.
A few weeks went buy, Alice and I trying to figure out how we could tell if it was the Jason we thought it was, even though Wendy had finally cut ties with him. But last week I was at karaoke with everyone and I got a phone call from Alice. She said she ran into Sharron that day, and because she cared about me, she had to ask her about Jason. Sharron said we didn't have to worry about it. In November, he followed her to Connetticut and when she got out of her car, he shot himself in front of her.
So much was racing through my head that night. 1. I couldn't believe if this man was really that insane, I didn't act sooner when I thought her was going near someone I really cared about. 2. I can't believe I got Alice involved in this, she has a son to live for 3. Thank god they're all ok. But Wendy did call me, and I told her everything. Thankfully she didn't hate me after.
The next day, I got a call from Alice. She said she got accepted to Tuffs University and she was going to move into her friend's apartment in Boston. I took her out to breakfast and dinner. I figured she's getting the fuck out of my life, the least I can do is buy her a few meals.
Pretty much, I'm starting a brand new life. No one is out to kill me anymore, and Alice is going to live a life where she don't feel like she needs me. 7 years and something like this comes. I decided to start by letting go of Wendy. I know I love her, but I think someone else could do better for her. I told Andy, I totally support the 2 of you together, I couldn't be happy for her w/ Jason, but I know I can if she's seeing you.
I'm still not going to be in any relationships, I still have my heart for Stephanie, but I can't keep commiting to something I can't have. I want the hurt to go away, so I'll do what I'll do.