Well Then, I Return Only to be the Only One
I'm back on livejournal and I am currantly finding out that no one is on it anymore. I guess this is a good time to tell everyone that I'm no in California and I never was. Where do I start to explain? Well, for starters, my car was in the shop for a month, I figured it was the perfect tool to take my mental vacation from all my loved ones. You know, time to accually think about yourself for once, but at the same time think of what kind of impact everyone has made on you. The only way I could pull of the whole "disappearing w/out accually being gone" thing is if everyone in my life really thought I was gone. So I didn't talk to anyone for awhile and then I sent a text to everyone in my phone saying "Just Got To Cali, Bye Hunz". Here I was doing my usual shift of work w/ grandma's car wondering, will they miss me? Oh yes, they did. Everyone responded, 3 ex girlfriends called me, and even Andy from e2e called me and he sounded pretty fucking down about the whole thing. Wow, I was truely gone to everyone and some even hated me for it.
But I "came back" and I'm now living w/ Blue and Crow in Leominster. Shit is hitting constant fans and it is pissing me off. Blue just found out she has pancriatic cancer and there is nothing they can do about it. She has no estimate on her life span, but it still says I'm eventually gonna lose another best friend. Speaking of that, Dan has no idea what he got himself into w/ Gina. I constantly have to keep telling him how dangerous she is for him and he won't fucking listen. She's even going as far as to telling everyone that their breakup was a scam and he was her mole, as a way to turn us against him. For fucksake, I want my best friend back and I really think he's pretty much gone because of that cunt. Tory and I had a long talk w/ him about it and I'm begining agree w/ Tory when he says that everything we say to him about her goes in one ear and out the other. She took his virginity and popped his mind cherry full forced and now he has no idea who his real friends are. Pretty much, the rest of us from Unspoken Hero are gonna move on w/out him for the time being. We're not gonna change our name because I told the guys that Dan has alot of shit to work out and when he feels like it's all good again, he can join back and everything will be perfect.
And worse of all I'm falling in love w/ Wendy all fucking over again. I thought I was doing fine in not thinking of her that way but somewhere between finding out that the nice guy I backed off for was a true fuckstain, having her spend 3 nights in my arms, and her telling Blue that she has feelings for me, I turned back around and now I can't remember what it's like to just go w/ what painful feelings you have for someone. This has happened to both me and Salina and her and I are wonder what the fuck happened to us. But as far as I know, her and Fred are happy and I very happy for them.
Feel free to hate me for whatever has been said in this entry, but I have no regrets for what was done. I've learned alot over the past month.

I Luvs All,
Laters.
Zack